I’ve been fascinated with the book of Job for a while now. My first interest in the book was mostly apologetically. I wanted to prove how a loving God could allow suffering. I wanted there to be a nice, clean, irrefutable answer. I wanted Job to be the reason why bad things happen to good people. I wanted that because I had suffered. Not exactly like Job, but enough that I warred against the idea of a loving God allowing His children to suffer for no darn good reason. As I look back on my wrestling with the theological dilemma of suffering, I can clearly see where I was trying to justify my self-righteousness more than I was trying to understand God’s purpose for our suffering.
As we study the Scriptures, we are constantly confronted with two undeniable truths: there is no one righteous and God does all He pleases. I resisted those truths in my life for so long. I wanted to be righteous without God’s help. I wanted my own goodness. I felt I could earn God’s love because I wasn’t a bad kid. At the time of my deepest suffering I was confident in my own righteousness. And because I was so righteous, God naturally loved me, answered my prayers almost exactly how I wanted Him to, and would protect me from suffering. God owed me for being so good. This unbiblical, Judeo-Christian Karma could not hold up against the reality of what the Lord had prepared for me in His grace.
Too many of us in our considerations of God want to pit God’s goodness and grace against His allowing suffering. We want the argument to be if God is good He will not allow suffering, especially for those He loves. Instead the reality tends to be God will allow suffering especially because He loves us. This truth the book of Job blasts in our faces. God will use suffering to move us closer to Him and further from our self-righteousness. If we are willing to let go of our own personal, unbiblical views of God and trust who He has revealed Himself to be, the book of Job can be balm for our souls instead of simply being a commiseration of our suffering. Job is not about the human bond of suffering where we can take comfort in knowing someone better than we are suffered too. Job is healing for us in knowing that our suffering is working for our good as God’s grace moves us from sandy self-reliance to solid faith in the sufficiency of God alone (see Matthew 7:24-27).